I DON'T KNOW

Exams are finally done and over with
but the happiness is short-lived.
Sure, I was elated, shouting with Sharyl and squealing like little girls.
After that I wasn't too sure.

Everyone headed out for big celebration parties,
I wasn invited, on both nights;
Friday with Teck and James and Saturday with Ammar and gang,
but I just didn't have the mood for anything like that anymore.

What's going on, what's going on?
I just know I'm running out of time,
September or May, and then September again, I don't know.

I don't know what to do from here,
where to go, how to do it.
I have nothing to expect;
nothing to look forward to;
nothing to be happy about.
I don't know anything anymore.

I'm lost.
I'm scared to even talk to some people close to me;
not to say get close to them, ever again.